Monday, February 4, 2013

The old man with a big smile


By Leah H. Mwainyekule

AS he stands in his shop serving customers, the old man looks happy.  A big smile on his face assures the buyers that they have come to the right place.  He sells commodities to them, jokes with them and laughs with them.  But behind his laughter, behind his smile, behind his jokes, is a sad story of being neglecting by his own children for being HIV positive.

Collington Mwakipesile realized he was HIV positive in 2004 when he decided to take a voluntary test after noticing that he had the symptoms.  When it was confirmed that he was actually positive, he decided to tell his older daughters but they didn’t like it.  And ever since, they are not really close to him.

“That year two of my children died of AIDS and I was taking care of them here at home.  After they passed away I realized that I also had some of the symptoms that they had, and I was falling sick more often.  I decided to take the test and it was confirmed that I was HIV positive,” he explains.  “But unfortunately when I told my other two daughters, I experienced stigma from them.”

Things with his wife were not better as well.  She got angry and refused to take the test.  During that time she got too much into drinking and used to get back home passed midnight or even the following day.  They used to fight a lot and all the children were on their mum’s side.

“One day we had a huge fight and my son decided to help him mother and fight me as well.  They were all over me and that was when I realized I had nothing left.  I decided to leave the house and stay on my own,” he remembers with sadness.  However, their relatives intervened and told him to go back home and that the children were old enough to rent their own place.  His wife decided to leave with the children.

“I got lonely, very lonely to the point that sometimes I would wake up in the middle of the night and start crying like a baby,” Collington says.  But not anymore.  The 67 year old has found peace in his group called Upendo where he is the Secretary General.  The group that has members who are people living with HIV in the Sinde ward in Mbeya Urban, implements under KIHUMBE through its Home Based Care program.

“The group has been my family and my whole life.  I have found peace because there are people here who love me and treat me as a human being,” he explains.  Through the group, he has also been able to borrow money that they contribute each week, and has managed to open a shop and a stall where he sells house products.  He also has one goat that was provided to him by the program, and he expects that it will produce many more goats in the future.


And Mr. Collington has not given up on his kids either: “I still love my daughters; and although they are not close to me, most of the time I try to contact them and visit them.  They are still my children and I will always be their father.”  And with this, he smiles again.  A big smile that assures everyone that Collington is now a happy man who is looking forward for a brighter future.

  
###

No comments:

Post a Comment